The trouble with most survival skills is that while they got us through the abuse, they become part of us and sooner or later work against us.
You may feel shame about some of the ways in which you survived. Forgive yourself. If this is difficult, ask your counselor and/or group for help. You will probably discover, especially if you're in a group, that other survivors have similar secrets to share.
You have the power to change. Do it from a place of acceptance. That's what this work is about. You will need a plan of action and lots of support.
Some of your survival skills may still be useful. These you may want to keep for now. You decide.
It cannot be emphasized enough that the healing journey, although sometimes excruciatingly painful, is worth taking. At times you may wonder if you should continue. If any of you are moved to write about the pot of gold at the end of the healing rainbow, please do. It would be of service to others struggling along behind you. Your emails are completely confidential. Absolutely no one sees them except me. And if I put a list on my blog on why healing is worth the effort, I won't use your name, initials or anything else that might hint at who you are.
Reminder: Don't kill yourself or your abuser(s) wins.
Even a 5-minute walk round the block can clear your head and help you feel better.