When you were a child your abuser was bigger, faster, stronger than you. While it may be questionable as to whether s/he was more intelligent than you, s/he certainly had more power and so could easily outsmart you.
Since you could neither fight off your abuser(s), nor get away (although you may have tried), you likely had to create other ways to endure what happened. You had no choice.
It takes considerable skill to survive childhood abuse. You may not be fully aware yet of the ways in which you did survive. Nor that you have used many of the same skills to cope with life ever since. It is important, once you have identified your coping skills, to honour them.
Many of us get stuck with labels – medical terms like syndromes and disorders – that suggest there is something wrong with us.
Nothing is wrong with you. You had a crime committed against you and you did what you could to get through.
REMINDER: Have you had fun today? Fun is the mandatory ingredient in healing. Watching animals or birds - even on television - always cheers me up. Or playing with my cats.